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Last night
Aug. 31st, 2009 03:27 pmAs I drifted off to sleep last night I come up with the most awesome post about gender and sex in my head. Can I remember any of it now? Of course not.
Have wobblies about transition and my gender again. Everyone wants to be attractive right? Well I'm convinced that I will never make as attractive a man as I can do a woman. And that sucks.
I also want to lost weight (having gotten it into my head that weight=curves=womanliness), but am feeling meh about exercise and work drives me to chocolate. Boyfriend commented that he's actually finding my increased boyishness less of a turn off than my weight. I want to slap him. Mostly because he's also put on weight and from there it just all gets petty.
So I guess I should go and get on with things like walking the dog and getting the house ready for new lodger. He's the local christian youth worker. And no he doesn't realised that he's moving in with a bisexual poly transman and his boyfriend who makes bondage gear.
Have wobblies about transition and my gender again. Everyone wants to be attractive right? Well I'm convinced that I will never make as attractive a man as I can do a woman. And that sucks.
I also want to lost weight (having gotten it into my head that weight=curves=womanliness), but am feeling meh about exercise and work drives me to chocolate. Boyfriend commented that he's actually finding my increased boyishness less of a turn off than my weight. I want to slap him. Mostly because he's also put on weight and from there it just all gets petty.
So I guess I should go and get on with things like walking the dog and getting the house ready for new lodger. He's the local christian youth worker. And no he doesn't realised that he's moving in with a bisexual poly transman and his boyfriend who makes bondage gear.
