quick post

the evening has run away from me and I am losing the ability to use capital letters because at work I have capslock on all the time so that the stupid pre-windows database will work.

for those who read about the special handcrafted item I am getting made - saw the bloke who will make it last night, but long story short he still doesn't know it's for me (although I suspect he's just assumed correctly). it will progress but just not yet. I didn't want to discuss it with him with new housemate around. new housemate did to his credit not freak out with all the bondage etc talk that happens with justin around. and to his credit when justin asked whether his fiance is also a sexual deviant new housemate answered "I don't know yet".

transition still seems this strange thing that I have regrets about. that is of course when I do go ahead with it. boyfriend is still struggling but also learning to be more open I think. we'll get there I think. I still have moments where I do not want to transition, but sine I'm pressing nothing either way right now it feels like I'll get to my own answer in my own time. 

really needed to book flight this evening but want to just walk the dog, shower and crash into bed.

night